[MissLilli]

so, Corinna und ich haben's geschafft, wir leben beide (mehr oder weniger) noch und haben neue Teile für euch, enjoy :hi:


He followed her into the bathroom, ignoring the protests of the women around him and held her hair back while she emptied her stomach into the toilet.
He closed hi eyes for a moment, trying to swallow the pain that this reminder of the current situation had caused but he failed miserably. He rubbed her back to give her at least a little bit of comfort. Lorelai dropped her head to her chest feeling tired and disgusting.
She gladly took the toilet paper Luke handed her and turned around to look at him; it shattered her heart to see this concern, this fear in his eyes and knowing that she was completely powerless made her wanna scream. Tears of frustration and tiredness were forming in her eyes and her bottom lip trembled.
She leaned against his chest.
“Talk to me” he said softly, tilting her head up with his finger. She sniffled, brushed away a tear
“I- it’s just - I wanted to forget tonight, you know, forget all about it and just enjoy the moment, but that’s not possible because the cancer not only takes over and controls my cells, it also starts to control my life. And I keep telling myself that it’s gonna be okay, that everything will work out fine, but I can’t keep the What ifs out of my head, you know, I really try to not think about what will happen if the therapy doesn’t catch on and focus on the battle but it’s just too hard, the thoughts come and go and I can’t stop them, no matter how much I want to!”
She cried into his shoulder and he stroked her hair, desperately trying to be strong for her, not to cave in, shutting the fears and worries out.
“Take me home, Luke” she said in a tear-stricken voice and he was happy to obey.

When he had calmed her down enough to go to sleep he had changed her into her pyjamas and tucked her into her bed. After making sure she was alright and went downstairs. He had dismissed all workers today so they were all alone in the house, which he was glad for as he grabbed the phone and dialled a familiar number.
“Mia? It’s Luke, I need to talk to you”

He spoke to Mia for about an hour and she comforted him, finding the exact words to make him feel better.
“It’s just that… sometimes I think I can’t take it anymore. Being there for her, being the strong one. I don’t really have the stamina for this because we’re too close, she’s too close and I’m not making sense anymore… Sorry Mia for bothering you this late. No it’s not fine, I shouldn’t do this. Thanks Mia, you’ve really helped me out. Yeah I will give her a hug from you. Yeah you too, bye”

He hung up and put the phone down gingerly, resting his head in his hands. He hadn’t noticed the slender figure leaning in the doorway because he sat with his back to the door and was so engrossed in the telephone call.
Lorelai had only heart the last part of the conversation and was walking toward him now, slowly. She put a hand on his shoulder and he jumped “Geez!! I thought you were asleep” How much did she hear?
“Who wants you to give me a hug?” she asked
“Oh, just Mia, I talked to Mia”
“Why would you call Mia?”
“Why wouldn’t I call Mia?”

“Because usually, when you needed somebody to talk to you called your mother, never Mia. This has got to be a huge problem for you. Did you talk to Mia about me?” she narrowed her eyes at him and watched him fidget under her gaze.
When she received no reply she slammed her hand down on the table, making his head shoot up.
“Goddamn it, Luke, I told you not to tell anyone, why can’t you respect that??”
“Honey, calm down, I-“
“No I don’t wanna calm down! Mia’s my buisnesspartner and if she knows, everybody’ll know. Luke, news like these spread like a wildfire in my business!”
“So basically you’re saying that the person I’d trust with my life would go around and spread something like that??” He was becoming more aggravated now
“Can you think about anyone but yourself for a minute, huh? Could you? Cause there are more important things to deal with now”
“So I’m not important to you, am I? Of course not, big Lorelai Gilmore doesn’t care about other peoples feelings!”
“You never listen, Luke, this could ruin my firm, destroy everything I’ve ever worked for in my life, if this gets out I’m toast, why don’t you get that??” she was screaming now, her face flushed, feeling a little nauseous.

“My God, look at us. Having a go at each other, jumping down each other’s throat when we really should bond and be strong together” Luke just nodded
“Remember the promise I gave you? That we wouldn’t fight anymore?” he asked and she smiled
“Cross your heart and hope to die? S-”
“Yes, that one. I’m sorry I broke it and I’m also sorry that I called Mia” she shook her head vigorously
“No, no, don’t apologize, I’m the one who started yelling at you even though you’ve been nothing but supportive and there for me over the last few weeks. I’m sorry. And I didn’t get around to tell you the thing at the ball that I absolutely wanna tell you!”
Luke looked at her expectantly as she wrapped her arms around his neck and looked him in the eye.

“I wanted to tell you in the right moment, at the right time, with the right circumstances but today I learnt that the setting is not so important. What really counts is the message you wanna convey. I haven’t said this to many people, come to think of it, I haven’t told anyone yet and really meant what I said-“
“Is your monologue finished anytime soon?” She put a finger to his lips to silence him
“Shh, jesus! Okay here goes: Luke, I- I love you”
He smiled under her finger and opened his mouth to speak but waited for her to give her permission
“Go ahead”
“I love you too, Lore. Even though I wished for the circumstances to be different, but as you said: the message is the key!” She’d never thought she would believe it if a man said these three (actually four) words to her, but it was different this time. She believed him and her heart swelled when he had kissed her and carried her up to bed.