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Okay, nächstes chapter.... Ich hoffe hier liest das überhaupt noch wer!



Chapter 5: We´re fine


The next morning Lorelai was on her way to the airport. Luke had refused to take her to the airport, because he feared that the kids would take it even harder if they saw their mother leave for a whole week. They had never been separated from her that long, at least not separated by miles. He wanted to keep the same routine like everyday because, as he had told her the evening before, for the daily routine of their children it wasn´t important anymore if she was there or not.
So she had left while the kids had still been asleep. She had kissed them all goodbye, without them realizing it and had lingered at William’s door for some time, watching her son sleep. Her son who hated her.
She had cried a lot the night before, after she had told Luke that she would fly to London. While he had cooked she had sat on a chair in the kitchen and told him what had happened. Luke had remained silent, but had given her an I-told-you-so-look.
After that he had taken care of William, calmed him down, and even got him to tidy up his chaotic room, while Lorelai had looked after the sick twins, had fed them the soup Luke had made, had cuddled them, had given them their medicine, and had read them their bedtime story.
Especially Laila had clung to her, like she always had, but when the story had been over and Lorelai told them to go to sleep, they had both started crying, wanting their daddy.
It had been another stab in Lorelai´s heart and once again she had started crying.
She just did not have the strength to deal with all that. The last year had been too hard. The amount of work, the lack of sleep, and missing her children and her husband had put her in an emotionally drained state. All she wanted to do during the last year was spend time with her family, hold her kids close and spend time with Luke. But now, when she tried to spend time with them she had to realize that she was estranged from her daughters, her son hated her, and Luke tried to hold the family somehow together.


After the incident with the twins she had left for the Inn, had taken last preparations for the time she wouldn´t be there, and had left last orders for Michel and the staff. When she had arrived home Luke had been asleep and she had crawled into bed next to him, snuggled as close as possible and slept until the alarm-clock had rung. She had slept awful and was thankful for the breakfast Luke had made her, telling her once again, that he wasn´t okay with her flying to London, but would accept her decision.


When she arrived at the airport she parked her car, took her suitcase, and started to search for the check-in desk. When she finally found it, it was still closed, she was too early. She bought something to eat and a cup of coffee in one of the many cafes at the airport . When she checked the time she decided to call Rory, because she must still be awake.
It took some time until she finally answered and Lorelai could hear music blasting in the background.
“Geez, where the hell are you?” She asked her daughter.
“Mom? Wait I’ll go outside!” Rory yelled into the phone and Lorelai heard first a door close and then the voice of her daughter again.
“I´m fine now. What´s up?”She asked.
“What´s up? Where are you?” Lorelai asked confused.
“One of Logan´s colleagues over here is celebrating his birthday. And because his flat is too small, we let him celebrate here at our apartment.” Rory explained.
“Logan´s colleague? I thought you broke up?!”
“Who? Me and the colleague?” Rory giggled and Lorelai realized that she was obviously drunk.
“You and Logan!” She clarified.
“No, we´re not. Why?” Rory asked and Lorelai gasped.
“I don´t know how much you remember at the moment, but I know that you called me yesterday, crying about the fact that Logan had cheated on you again and you said that you broke up and that you now need a new apartment and that I should come. I wasn´t imagining it, Rory!” Lorelai resumed their previous talk.
“Oh that! That was a stupid misunderstanding!” Rory laughed.
“A what?” Lorelai couldn´t believe it.
“I found a letter in one of Logan´s suits and thought that he had cheated on me again. I called you, obviously. But then Logan came back and explained the whole thing to me and we´re fine!”
“What did he explain to you?” Lorelai stressed the word explain.
“I really don´t want to get into that now, mom! We´re fine, that´s all that counts right?” Rory said.
“You don´t want to get into that? That whole last year Logan cheated on you repeatedly and every time you came running to mommy, especially after he left for London and I always made time for you. I neglected your siblings, hell I haven´t seen them awake in ages, and now you´re basically telling me that this is none of my business, because you two are fine again? I´m sitting here at the airport, waiting to check-in, after your brother told me he hates me, and he hates you! I decided to come to you, nonetheless and now you give me that?” Lorelai practically screamed into her cell-phone which brought her stares from the other guests at the cafe.
“Will is a kid mom. He does not hate you and he does not hate me! He doesn´t know what he´s talking about!” Rory said
“You did not see him! You didn´t see his eyes! And obviously you don´t care. The next time you have trouble with Logan don´t you dare call me!Call Lane, Paris, or anyone else, but not me! Luke was right! You´re 26, you have to deal with these things on your own. I don´t have time for this crap, because I somehow need to win the respect and the love of your siblings back. Because they still need me!” Lorelai said and nearly started crying again.
“Mom, what do you want me to say to that? Do what you have to do! I have to go back to the party! Kiss the others for me!” Rory slurred, hung up and Lorelai wasn´t sure if her daughter had understood a single word of their conversation or would even remember they had talked at all.


Meanwhile at home Luke had woken up the kids and had made them breakfast. Emily was already there, because she would stay with the twins at home since they weren´t feeling better.
Luke hadn´t said anything about Lorelai´s whereabouts to Emily yet and he wouldn´t bring it up if he didn´t have to. He and his mother-in-law had found a certain understanding and respect for each other over the last few years. Of course, with Emily still being Emily, it wasn´t easy and peaceful all the time; there were days when Luke nearly threw her out, but they had learned to live and to deal with each other.
“I don´t wanna take the medicine!” Sara whined, sitting on Luke´s lap, tilting her head back to get away from the spoon with the medicine.
“Sara, you have to take it so you will feel better!” Luke said calmly and held her head.
“I want mommy!” She said suddenly and Emily looked at her surprised, while she made Laila´s cocoa.
“Your mommy is not here!” Luke just said.
“But she was here yesterday night. She made spoon-airplane! I want mommy giving me the medicine!” The girl whined.
“Me too!” Laila said and started coughing afterwards.
“She is not here!” Luke said and Emily gave him an accusing glance, which was saying ‘Then make her come here!’
“Will she be here tonight? Like yesterday!” Laila asked, after she stopped coughing, her voice raspy.
“No, she won´t be here tonight,” Luke said quietly. It was hard for him disappointing his children and he wished he had locked Lorelai in the house with her kids, so that she would have to deal with their disappointment.
“Why not, daddy? Please call her! I want mommy for the good night story!” Sara begged.
“It wouldn´t matter if I call her because she is sitting on a plane flying to Rory.”
“To London?” Emily shrieked and nearly dropped the hot milk.
“Yes, to London!” Luke confirmed.
“Has she lost her mind? What is she doing over there?” Emily asked, but Luke just helplessly shrugged.
“Ask her when she is back!” He said.
“She is not coming back!” William suddenly said and the two adults stared at him
“Of course she is coming back, William!” Luke said.
“No! Because she likes Rory better than us. And Rory wants her to stay. And I told her that I hate her and now she hates me, too. And that´s why she won´t come back!” William said. First his lip started to quiver, then he started to cry.
Luke handed Sara to Emily and took William out of his chair.
“Your mother does not hate you William. She loves you very much.”
“No, she only loves Rory!”
“William, that´s not true. But Rory has problems and your mother needs to be there for her.” Luke tried to explain, although it was hard for him to get the words out and defend Lorelai.
“She´s always with Rory! She hates me! She hates me because I´m a boy!” He cried.
“Oh, Will!” Luke said. He knew that no matter what he said now, it wasn´t enough.
“I don´t want mommy to hate me! I want her to come back! I want my mommy!” The boy sobbed and it was hard to understand him.
“Will, honey, mommy is here!” Lorelai’s voice could suddenly be heard. She had made her entrance unnoticed by the others and had heard every word. It broke her heart that her son had so little trust in her. He had really thought that she wouldn´t come back.
All eyes were on her and she wasn´t sure what she was supposed to do, while she still stood in the doorway of the kitchen.


TBC