[snoopy_sun]

*mich mal anschleich*

gott, ich bin so süchtig nach dieser FF abber:

gibt's denn heute noch einen neuen teil? *nerven muss*

[karana]

Warum musst du dich denn anschleichen?
ne heute kein neuer Teil mehr. ich war gerade debi, aber dann musste ich noch nen ziemlich langen Post in den dpdm-Thread setzen, weil ich da mit jemandem über die Qualität der Fic diskutiere, naja egal, jedenfalls heue nicht mehr... und ob das morgen was wird bin ich mir auch nicht sicher, aber ich werd mir Mühe geben!

[Scottjunkie]

Oy with the sequel,already! Drama, Drama, Drama! I love it. :biggrin:

[karana]

Yay, you´re back!
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[karana]

Okay, nächstes chapter.... Ich hoffe hier liest das überhaupt noch wer!



Chapter 5: We´re fine


The next morning Lorelai was on her way to the airport. Luke had refused to take her to the airport, because he feared that the kids would take it even harder if they saw their mother leave for a whole week. They had never been separated from her that long, at least not separated by miles. He wanted to keep the same routine like everyday because, as he had told her the evening before, for the daily routine of their children it wasn´t important anymore if she was there or not.
So she had left while the kids had still been asleep. She had kissed them all goodbye, without them realizing it and had lingered at William’s door for some time, watching her son sleep. Her son who hated her.
She had cried a lot the night before, after she had told Luke that she would fly to London. While he had cooked she had sat on a chair in the kitchen and told him what had happened. Luke had remained silent, but had given her an I-told-you-so-look.
After that he had taken care of William, calmed him down, and even got him to tidy up his chaotic room, while Lorelai had looked after the sick twins, had fed them the soup Luke had made, had cuddled them, had given them their medicine, and had read them their bedtime story.
Especially Laila had clung to her, like she always had, but when the story had been over and Lorelai told them to go to sleep, they had both started crying, wanting their daddy.
It had been another stab in Lorelai´s heart and once again she had started crying.
She just did not have the strength to deal with all that. The last year had been too hard. The amount of work, the lack of sleep, and missing her children and her husband had put her in an emotionally drained state. All she wanted to do during the last year was spend time with her family, hold her kids close and spend time with Luke. But now, when she tried to spend time with them she had to realize that she was estranged from her daughters, her son hated her, and Luke tried to hold the family somehow together.


After the incident with the twins she had left for the Inn, had taken last preparations for the time she wouldn´t be there, and had left last orders for Michel and the staff. When she had arrived home Luke had been asleep and she had crawled into bed next to him, snuggled as close as possible and slept until the alarm-clock had rung. She had slept awful and was thankful for the breakfast Luke had made her, telling her once again, that he wasn´t okay with her flying to London, but would accept her decision.


When she arrived at the airport she parked her car, took her suitcase, and started to search for the check-in desk. When she finally found it, it was still closed, she was too early. She bought something to eat and a cup of coffee in one of the many cafes at the airport . When she checked the time she decided to call Rory, because she must still be awake.
It took some time until she finally answered and Lorelai could hear music blasting in the background.
“Geez, where the hell are you?” She asked her daughter.
“Mom? Wait I’ll go outside!” Rory yelled into the phone and Lorelai heard first a door close and then the voice of her daughter again.
“I´m fine now. What´s up?”She asked.
“What´s up? Where are you?” Lorelai asked confused.
“One of Logan´s colleagues over here is celebrating his birthday. And because his flat is too small, we let him celebrate here at our apartment.” Rory explained.
“Logan´s colleague? I thought you broke up?!”
“Who? Me and the colleague?” Rory giggled and Lorelai realized that she was obviously drunk.
“You and Logan!” She clarified.
“No, we´re not. Why?” Rory asked and Lorelai gasped.
“I don´t know how much you remember at the moment, but I know that you called me yesterday, crying about the fact that Logan had cheated on you again and you said that you broke up and that you now need a new apartment and that I should come. I wasn´t imagining it, Rory!” Lorelai resumed their previous talk.
“Oh that! That was a stupid misunderstanding!” Rory laughed.
“A what?” Lorelai couldn´t believe it.
“I found a letter in one of Logan´s suits and thought that he had cheated on me again. I called you, obviously. But then Logan came back and explained the whole thing to me and we´re fine!”
“What did he explain to you?” Lorelai stressed the word explain.
“I really don´t want to get into that now, mom! We´re fine, that´s all that counts right?” Rory said.
“You don´t want to get into that? That whole last year Logan cheated on you repeatedly and every time you came running to mommy, especially after he left for London and I always made time for you. I neglected your siblings, hell I haven´t seen them awake in ages, and now you´re basically telling me that this is none of my business, because you two are fine again? I´m sitting here at the airport, waiting to check-in, after your brother told me he hates me, and he hates you! I decided to come to you, nonetheless and now you give me that?” Lorelai practically screamed into her cell-phone which brought her stares from the other guests at the cafe.
“Will is a kid mom. He does not hate you and he does not hate me! He doesn´t know what he´s talking about!” Rory said
“You did not see him! You didn´t see his eyes! And obviously you don´t care. The next time you have trouble with Logan don´t you dare call me!Call Lane, Paris, or anyone else, but not me! Luke was right! You´re 26, you have to deal with these things on your own. I don´t have time for this crap, because I somehow need to win the respect and the love of your siblings back. Because they still need me!” Lorelai said and nearly started crying again.
“Mom, what do you want me to say to that? Do what you have to do! I have to go back to the party! Kiss the others for me!” Rory slurred, hung up and Lorelai wasn´t sure if her daughter had understood a single word of their conversation or would even remember they had talked at all.


Meanwhile at home Luke had woken up the kids and had made them breakfast. Emily was already there, because she would stay with the twins at home since they weren´t feeling better.
Luke hadn´t said anything about Lorelai´s whereabouts to Emily yet and he wouldn´t bring it up if he didn´t have to. He and his mother-in-law had found a certain understanding and respect for each other over the last few years. Of course, with Emily still being Emily, it wasn´t easy and peaceful all the time; there were days when Luke nearly threw her out, but they had learned to live and to deal with each other.
“I don´t wanna take the medicine!” Sara whined, sitting on Luke´s lap, tilting her head back to get away from the spoon with the medicine.
“Sara, you have to take it so you will feel better!” Luke said calmly and held her head.
“I want mommy!” She said suddenly and Emily looked at her surprised, while she made Laila´s cocoa.
“Your mommy is not here!” Luke just said.
“But she was here yesterday night. She made spoon-airplane! I want mommy giving me the medicine!” The girl whined.
“Me too!” Laila said and started coughing afterwards.
“She is not here!” Luke said and Emily gave him an accusing glance, which was saying ‘Then make her come here!’
“Will she be here tonight? Like yesterday!” Laila asked, after she stopped coughing, her voice raspy.
“No, she won´t be here tonight,” Luke said quietly. It was hard for him disappointing his children and he wished he had locked Lorelai in the house with her kids, so that she would have to deal with their disappointment.
“Why not, daddy? Please call her! I want mommy for the good night story!” Sara begged.
“It wouldn´t matter if I call her because she is sitting on a plane flying to Rory.”
“To London?” Emily shrieked and nearly dropped the hot milk.
“Yes, to London!” Luke confirmed.
“Has she lost her mind? What is she doing over there?” Emily asked, but Luke just helplessly shrugged.
“Ask her when she is back!” He said.
“She is not coming back!” William suddenly said and the two adults stared at him
“Of course she is coming back, William!” Luke said.
“No! Because she likes Rory better than us. And Rory wants her to stay. And I told her that I hate her and now she hates me, too. And that´s why she won´t come back!” William said. First his lip started to quiver, then he started to cry.
Luke handed Sara to Emily and took William out of his chair.
“Your mother does not hate you William. She loves you very much.”
“No, she only loves Rory!”
“William, that´s not true. But Rory has problems and your mother needs to be there for her.” Luke tried to explain, although it was hard for him to get the words out and defend Lorelai.
“She´s always with Rory! She hates me! She hates me because I´m a boy!” He cried.
“Oh, Will!” Luke said. He knew that no matter what he said now, it wasn´t enough.
“I don´t want mommy to hate me! I want her to come back! I want my mommy!” The boy sobbed and it was hard to understand him.
“Will, honey, mommy is here!” Lorelai’s voice could suddenly be heard. She had made her entrance unnoticed by the others and had heard every word. It broke her heart that her son had so little trust in her. He had really thought that she wouldn´t come back.
All eyes were on her and she wasn´t sure what she was supposed to do, while she still stood in the doorway of the kitchen.


TBC

[jeany_loverin]

Okay, nächstes chapter.... Ich hoffe hier liest das überhaupt noch wer!

Natürlich ich les das noch ^^ warte doch schon die ganze Zeit auf ein neues Kap. da ich dpdm und das erste sequel doch schon kenn und total gespannt bin, wie es weiter geht!

So nun zum Kapitel.
Des war ma wieder super gut!
Mir taten die Zwillinge total leid. Und Will...der hat echt gedacht, Lore kommt nich mehr wieder...das is total...hamma...die armen kleinen!
Und Rory...Ich glaub die hat echt total einen weg! Warum hat sie Lorelai denn nich angerufen, als sie rausgefunden hat, dass alles nur ein Missverständnis war? Lore hätt sich viel Ärger erspart...wobei...villeicht hat sie ja jetzt endlich mal geschnallt, dass sie mehr für ihre Family zu hause da sein muss.
Ich hoffe die bekommen das wieder hin!
Echt gut. Bin gespannt wie es weiter geht!!!

[rottie]

OMG!
was hammer - und rory wird mir immer unsympathischer *g* aber hoffentlich hat lorelai nu endlich gemerkt was richtig ist!
ich bin gespannt auf wills reaktion!!

und mach dir keine sorgen, ICH lese AUF JEDEN FALL mit!!

[karana]

Chapter 6: Abilities as a mother


For a few awkward moments she just stood in the doorway, her eyes fixed on William’s tear-clouded ones. William looked at her and for some seconds she thought he would come to her. But that would have been too easy. He just buried his face on his father´s flannel covered shoulder again.
The twins, both on Emily´s arm now, held their arms open for her to take them, but she just gave each one a kiss before she walked over to Luke and William.
She stroked over William’s hair, while he still refused to look at her, and kneeled down beside Luke.
“William, I would never leave you! I don´t hate you. I could never hate you. You are my son, my baby-boy, and I love you so much. Will, I know I´ve been an awful mother for you in the past, but I promise you that I will change. I promise that I will have more time for you. I missed you too during this year. William, sweety, look at me please!” Lorelai begged and was surprised when he really lifted his head.
She took his face in her hands and wiped his tears away.
“I love you and I promise you that I will change!” She said again.
“You never keep your promises!” He whispered and sniffed. Lorelai had the urge to run again, just to get out of this situation. Or to cry and Luke would have to soothe her. But she stayed strong.
“This one I will keep. I will spend more time with you, I will be there when you wake up and I will be there when you go to sleep at night. It will be like before, okay?” William just looked at her. That was enough for Lorelai at the moment and she placed a kiss on his forehead, giving him a small smile.
“Should I walk you to school?” She asked him then.
“You are not going to Rory?” William wanted to be reassured.
“I am not going to Rory!” She gave him the reassurance. William nodded once.
“And, what do you say: Should I walk you to school?” She asked him again and hoped for him to forgive her. But again: It wasn´t that easy.
“No daddy!” William said, but stopped crying and looked questioningly at his father.
“Okay,then let´s go!” Luke said and stood up. He placed William on the floor and he ran off to put on his shoes.”We will talk later, okay?” Luke told her and gave her a kiss and a reassuring shoulder squeeze.
“Okay! I will be here the whole day and look after the twins” She told him, which made him smile.
“Really mommy?” Sara asked with her hoarse voice, but still sounded excited.
“Yes, really, my baby!” Lorelai laughed at the excitement of her daughter, but was touched at the same time. She took them both from her mother.
“God, you two are heavy! Put on one more kilo and I will crumble to the floor!” Lorelai joked, but felt lighter than ever. She had a whole week with her kids in front of her. She would have time for them. For them and for Luke. They would need some time to themselves also. But her main focus would lie on William, because the situation as it was, broke her heart.
The girls laughed at Lorelai´s joke, but then had to cough again.
“Oh my poor babies! Did you already take your medicine?” She asked them and they both shook their head no.
Luke just smiled at the scene. This was the way it was supposed to be, Lorelai was home and had time for them, finally. He walked over to where she stood and gave her another kiss, just because he could, just because she was there.
“They want the spoon-airplane for their medicine!” Luke explained to her.
“Ah, good choice! I think the departure will be very soon! You ready?” She asked them and gave Luke another kiss. The girls nodded.
“Mommy, look, I tied my shoe laces all by myself!” William said, still shyly, as if Lorelai could walk away again any second.
“William, you have known how to do that since you were one and a half years old!” Luke said, still smiling.
“Oh shush you! He could have slipped on his sneakers, they have no laces! But he didn´t and chose the ones with laces, which is a great thing!” Lorelai said and winked at William. He gave her a shy smile.
“Can we go?” Luke asked William.
“Yes!” He said and walked over to Emily.
“Bye grandma!” He said and she leaned over and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
“Bye William! Have a nice day!” She said. William then stood there and had the same look on his face like yesterday: He was thinking about what to do. His forehead was wrinkled, his head slightly tilted to one side, he bit on his upper lip.
For Lorelai it was like the time stood still. He just looked at her and she could hear the wheels turning in his head. Slowly he walked towards her and then held out his right hand. She had to smile at the gesture, set the twins on the floor, took his hand and shook it.
“Bye mommy, have a nice day!” He repeated his grandmother’s sentence.
“Bye sweety. See you later!” She told him and stroked over his brown hair again before he and Luke left.


“Mommy!” the twins started to whine as soon as their father was out of sight.
“What? I think you should take your medicine now, huh? Otherwise the spoon-plane will be flown away and you will stay sick!” Lorelai told them.
“But the spoon-plane isn´t real!” Sara said.
“No? Oh my god, I thought it was!” Lorelai said and faked surprise.
“Take your medicine now, your cocoa is getting cold!” Emily said and by the way she looked at Lorelai, it was clear, that she had some things to say to her daughter.
Lorelai took the twins and gave them both their medicine and they took it without complaining. She used the time during breakfast to catch up on the stories her daughters had to tell.
Afterwards she lay them down on the couch in the living-room, and turned on Willy Wonka for them. Before she walked back into the kitchen she covered them both with a blanket.
“Mommy, where are you going?” Laila asked and sat up when Lorelai wanted to leave the room.
“Into the kitchen, princess” She said and smiled.
“Not to the Inn?” Laila wanted to know.
“No, I´m not going to the Inn.” Lorelai confirmed.
“And not to London?” Sara also sat up.
“No and not to London. I´m staying here with you the whole day. Is that good?”
“Yeah!” Sara smiled and lay back down.
“Mommy?” Laila wasn´t finished.
“Yes princess?”
“Kiss?” She asked shyly. Lorelai walked over to her and kissed her, first on the mouth, then on her forehead. She also gave Sara a kiss before she walked back into the kitchen.


In the kitchen Emily was already waiting for her.
“Lorelai Victoria Gilmore, have you completely lost your mind?” She fumed.
“My last name is Danes mom!” Lorelai pointed out.
“It doesn´t matter if your last name is Gilmore, Danes, or Weasley you are my daughter and are neglecting my grandchildren by running off to London to hold the hand of your twenty-six year old daughter! What were you thinking?” Emily asked.
“I thought that Rory needed me. And she is your grandchild, too! I thought that Luke could look after the kids, because it didn´t matter anymore if I was sitting a whole week at the Inn or flying to London. Where´s the difference?”
“If you can not see it, then I will certainly not point it out for you! Don´t you ever dare to judge my abilities as a mother again after what you did to your children over the last year!” Emily said and it was hard for her to keep her voice down, so that the twins wouldn´t hear every word.
“I failed, I know that. I failed completely as a mother. There is no need to rub my nose in it; my five year old son told me that he hates me and threw me out of his room!” Lorelai said louder than intended and rubbed the tears away, which, beside her efforts, had spilled.
“Well you were three when you first said it, so it took him two years longer. Not pleasant, is it?” Emily said.
“Not pleasant? It broke my heart mom!I want my kids to love me as much as I love them. This is my worst nightmare! I did this to him! I made my own son hate me and I am devastated. I can not stand it when they are looking at me and I all I can see in their eyes is mistrust. The twins were afraid that I might leave them in the living-room and run off to the inn, because that´s what I did the whole last year. They hate me, they all hate me!” Lorelai said and wiped away some more tears.
“They don´t hate you! They just miss you and William is being William, which means he is like you when it comes to those things, wanted to pay you back. Wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt him when you pushed him away.”
“Why didn´t you tell me?”
“Why didn´t I tell you what?”
“What a bad mother I am! You and Luke should have stopped me. You should have locked me in and talked some sense into me. It would have never gone this far.” She said, suddenly angry at her mother and her husband.
“Oh please, Lorelai! I´m surely not the person you would have listened to when it comes to your children. And Luke tried. We got into a fight over it about three months ago. He told me that he tried, but that you are too tired to listen, doing bills while he was talking, just leaving mid talk because the phone rang. You did this, Lorelai, not him. He was here, every day, he called me and asked me for help when he couldn´t take the kids with him to the diner because he was busy or the kids were sick. He never complained about it to me, but I could see that it exhausted him. He had to hire extra help at the Diner to get all the work done somehow. Don´t blame him for your failure!” Emily told her harshly. Lorelai smiled, but it was a sad smile.
“I never thought I would hear you defending Luke some day!” She said.
“He is a good man and an amazing father.” Emily shrugged.
“I know. He is the best. Thanks mom for being here and looking after the kids.”
“It´s okay. But you really have to think about your priorities Lorelai. Don´t make the same mistakes we did!”
“Oh, I thought about them! It had never been clearer than this morning after the call that my priorities are mixed-up.
“Which call are you talking about?” Emily wanted to know and they both sat down on the chairs in front of the counter in the kitchen.
“I called Rory this morning to tell her when I would arrive in London. She was at a party and pretty drunk. She had no idea that she called me yesterday and had begged me to come and be there for her. She was a mess and I promised her to come. So I call her this morning and she has no idea and tells me that everything was just a misunderstanding and she and Logan are fine, no need for me to come. She didn´t even call me yesterday to tell me that they reconciled! She went to party with her friends and just didn´t care that I was worried, booked a flight, whatever.” Lorelai vented.
“She is grown-up. She is an adult now. And she is used to the fact that you always come running to her rescue. Lorelai, it might be good for the two of you that Rory is in London now. It will get you some distance. And if she really needs you, she will come back. As long as she is not standing in front of your door asking for help, it can´t be that bad. Logan will cheat on her again. We both know that. And as long as these two don´t break up for good, she will call again, she will be devastated, but then they will reconcile and you are not needed anymore.”
“You´re right. I know that now. I just have to deal with the consequences of my behavior during the last year and hope that it´s not too late.” Lorelai sighed.
“It´s not too late. There is no such thing, I think we two proved that!” Emily smiled. They were both quiet for some time.
“I never hated you mom.” Lorelai said then.
“Good.” was all Emily said, but gave Lorelai´s hand a squeeze.
“I think I’ll go and check on the twins. Are you staying?” Lorelai asked her then.
“No, I think I will go home and give you some time alone with your children. Are you going to stay home this whole week?”
“I think so. I got the Inn covered, so no need for me to go.”
“Luke told me that he took a break from the diner also to distract the children while you would be away. Since you both are home now for the week and the twins are sick and can´t go to kindergarten anyway,why don´t you go away for some time? You could use the house we bought at Martha´s Vineyard.” Emily proposed.
“I would like that. I will talk with Luke about it and call you!”
“I will hear from you then. Goodbye Lorelai!” Emily smiled.
“Bye Mom and thanks again!” Lorelai smiled back at her mother and went back into the living-room.


TBC

[jeany_loverin]

oooohhh noch eine neues Kapitel heut *freu*
Endlich checkt Lore, was sie falsch gemacht hat und nimmt sich auch wirklich die Zeit dazu alles wieder richtig zu biegen!
Emily hat recht...sie sollten wegfahren und dann klappt das auch alles wieder!
Die sind so eine tolle Familie und ich hoff ganz doll das sie das wieder auf die Reihe kriegen!

[23 Zwerge]

hey,

zwei super kapitel, auch wenn ich bestimmt nur 60- 70% verstanden hab lol
irgendwas sagt mir, dass lorelai trotzdem bald wieder alles macht wie vorher...wie lange im inn arbeitet und so...aber abwarten und tee trinken
tolle idee hab nichts zu meckern