Hey, ich weià doppelpost, aber ich kann ja nix für wenn ihr nix mehr schreibt.
Wurde gerade daran erinnert hier mal wieder ein update reinzusetzen, also mache ich das doch glatt, sogar mit 2 Kapiteln, damit ihr wieder mit FF gleich auf seid! Bednkt euch bei Lauren4eva, sonst hätte ich hier nix mehr gepostet.
Chapter 15: Beach in the house
Lorelai needed a few minutes to absorb what had just happened before she finally understood it.
At first she wanted to yell at Luke for speaking to Rory the way he had done, but the longer she thought about it, the clearer it became for her that this wasn´t only about Rory´s behavior, but just as much about her own. She knew that Luke had been hurt and had missed her during the last year, but she hadn´t been aware that it had affected him that much.
She sat in the living-room and at some point she remembered his words.
âYou know I can´t remember a single occasion during the last year when it was important if I understood or tolerated your actions. And that´s okay, it´s just me! It´s not important if I understand.â
âBut don´t stand here and want me to understand and help! You made your bed, now lie in it!â
âI mean, I have everything covered it´s not like it would change anything if you come home late at night and leave in the early morning hours or not. I would miss you sleeping next to me, yes, but I´m talking about the kids and their routine now.â
âHe held up a mirror in front of you, and showed you what you´re doing to him. Showed you how you hurt him. And, honestly, I can understand him.â
âIt hurt me to always tell them that you would not come home, that you wouldn´t be there. They were so disappointed and sometimes I just failed. I yelled at them, because I missed you too. I took my bad mood out on them.â His sentences flew around in her head and she could have kicked herself.
âGod, I´m such an idiot!â She sighed, shook her head, and buried it in her hands for some time.
Then she walked upstairs and found the kids in the bathroom.
All of her nail polish bottles were lined up on the bathroom floor and Sara, Laila, and William were lying in front of it, discussing the colors.
âMommy, can men also paint their nails?â Sara asked.
âSure, David Beckham does it all the time.â Lorelai said and sat down next to them.
âSee, I told you!â Sara grinned at William.
âI don´t wanna paint my nails. Daddy never paints his nails.â William scoffed.
âOh yes, his toe nails, all the time.â Lorelai grinned.
âYou´re lying. Where is daddy?â William said.
âUh, um, he... he went for a walk.â Lorelai told him.
âMommy, is Rory leaving now?â Laila asked.
âWhy whould Rory be leaving?â Lorelai asked innocently.
âBecause daddy yelled at her that she should leave.â Laila told her.
âYou heard your daddy´s little rant, huh? Obviously these walls are not as sound-proof as we thought they were. Thank god for the little interruptions at night.â Lorelai muttered the last part.
âDo you want Rory to leave?â She asked them then.
âYes!â William yelled immediately.
âWell, your answer I knew, but what about you two, sweeties? Do you want Rory to leave?â She looked at the girls and they looked down. Then Sara spoke up.
âMommy, always when Rory comes you have no time for us. And playing on the beach with you and daddy was fun and then she comes and Daddy is yelling and William is crying. I want her to leave.â She said.
âMe too.â Laila admitted. Lorelai looked at them and her eyes teared up. This was all her fault.
âYou know Rory and Logan had some trouble and that´s why she thought it would be nice to have some fun with us. I will talk with your daddy when he comes back and if he wants to then I will ask Rory to leave, okay?â Lorelai tried to smile at them.
âOkay.â They agreed.
âMommy, can you paint my nails purple?â Sara asked a second later and the topic was dropped.
âSure. But only your toe nails, otherwise your daddy will kill me.â Lorelai said and opened the nail polish.
After every toe nail was painted, except Williamâs, it was bedtime for the kids and Lorelai became worried when she had finished the story and Luke still wasn´t back. She brought William, Laila, and Sara into their rooms and tucked them in. She found Rory in Sara´s room and gestured for her to follow her outside.
She closed the door behind her and together they walked downstairs and into the kitchen because it was the farthest from the stairs.
âListen Rory, I know you´re upset and I know that not everything that Luke said was true...â
âNot everything?â
âand I want you to know that his rant was not totally directed towards you. The last year obviously affected Luke more than we both thought and at least half the stuff he told you he should have directed at me. I´m sorry for that and please don´t be too angry with him. I´m sure he will apologize as soon as he has calmed down a bit.â Lorelai said and rubbed Rory´s right arm.
âIt really hurt what he said. Am I really that selfish?â Rory asked quietly.
âWell I can´t say that you did a lot for our family and your relationship with your sisters isn´t really outstanding and the one with Will is ... well, let´s be honest: it´s a nightmare. But this is just as much my fault as it is yours if not even more so. I´m sorry I put you in this position.â Lorelai sighed.
âIt´s okay. But you said you didn´t agree with all of what Luke said, so you agreed with some of it?â Rory asked with raised eyebrows.
âWell, yeah. You can´t deny that you still call me in the middle of the night, that you only stop by if you want something or need something even if it is just for Luke to cook you some decent food.â
Rory gasped.
âThat´s not true!â She said.
âRory, I think you argued enough with us for today and I don´t want to get into this now. I have to find Luke. And because you did it so often over the years: Keep an eye on your siblings, they are supposed to stay in their beds. And no blood-bath until we are back!â Lorelai ordered with some sarcasm in her voice and left the house.
She didn´t really know where to look first, so she walked into the city-center and searched there for him, maybe he had grabbed a beer or something. But he didn´t. It was already dark when she came back from her trip to the city so she walked through the house to be sure he wasn´t already back before she walked into the garden, to the pool, and then down to the beach.
From some distance she could see him sitting on the cold sand, staring at the sea, and relieve flooded her, although she wasn´t sure why.
âHey.â She said quietly and stroked over his hair.
âHeyâ He said and turned his head. She stroked over his cap-less head for some time, before she sat down beside him.
âI´m sorry.â She said after another minute of silence.
âHm?â He said and looked at her.
âI´m sorry. I´m sorry for leaving you alone with the kids. I´m sorry for not being there. I´m sorry for not listening to you. I´m sorry for neglecting you.â She explained.
âLorel...â He started but she interrupted him.
âNo, please listen. While I was sitting in the living room today, after your outburst, snippits of what you said a week ago came back to me. I was worried about the kids and about losing their trust and their love. I apologized a thousand times to Will, but never really to you. You are important to me. Your opinion is important to me. It matters, you matter. Don´t hide yourself behind the kids, because you are just as important, we are just as important, Luke.â She told him and he resumed staring out at the sea.
âLuke, please look at me.â She requested and placed her hand on his stubbly cheek. Slowly he turned his head.
âI missed you, too. So much, honey.â She said, barely audible over the crashing waves. Luke remained silent and looked her in the eyes, as if to see if she was telling the truth. Then he pulled her to him and hugged her. He buried his head in the crook of her neck. From time to time he placed some kisses on her skin, but held her tight.
âI´m sorry. I shouldn´t have yelled at Rory, because it´s not as bad as...â He started and she placed a finger on his lips.
âSshhh.â She shushed him and smiled before she kissed him. The kiss remained slow and romantic, but he pulled her in his lap at some point.
âLuke?â Lorelai whispered and pulled back after a few minutes.
âYeah?â He whispered back.
âHold me for a while?â She asked. He just smiled and opened his legs for her to sit in between. She turned around and leaned her back against his chest. He leaned against one of the rocks and slung both arms around her, to pull her tightly against him. She played with his fingers and stroked over his arms while they both listened to the sounds of the waves and looked out at the sea for a long time.
After nearly half an hour Lorelai turned her head and looked up at him. He had his nose buried in her hair and his eyes closed. She pulled her head away and he opened his eyes. She smiled up at him and he returned her smile and placed a kiss on her nose. Lorelai pressed her lips against his chin one time and then a second time before she captured his lips with hers. Her tongue teased his bottom-lip for some time before he opened his mouth and allowed her entrance.
Without breaking apart, Lorelai turned around and straddled him again. The kiss was just as slow as the one before, and had nothing to do with the heated kisses from the entire day. One of his hands caressed her face, while the other played with her curls. Her hands were busy unbuttoning his shirt and then taking it off of him. She kissed down his throat, over his shoulders, to his chest where she drew circles with her tongue and grazed his skin. When she made her way back up, their lips found each other again and Luke took off her blue top. It was chilly at the beach, and so she pressed herself even tighter against his warm body when the cold air touched her skin. He slung his arms around her again and lay her slowly down on the sand, staring into her eyes while doing so.
She smiled up at him, kissed him with a bit more passion, unbuckled his belt, opened his zipper, and tried to pull his jeans down. When it didn´t work the way she wanted she pushed him off of her and rolled them over. She kneeled beside him just to pull his jeans off and then lay down on top of him, pressing herself against him. They kissed again and Luke caressed her back, then he hooked his fingers in her skirt and pulled it down as far as he could. His hands stroked back up her back and opened the clasp of her bra.
He rolled them over again, sand from his hair rained down on Lorelai´s skin, and caused her to giggle. She stopped when he took her skirt off completely and kissed down her legs in the process. He took her cold feet in his warm hands for a few seconds and placed a kiss on each toe before he made his way back up to her. He placed kisses on her stomach and she laughed, his stubble tickled her skin. Her laughs subsided when he took her bra off and placed his lips on her own...
âI think the shower earlier was a waste of water, because now I have sand in all kinds of inappropriate places!â Lorelai laughed a while later and put her shirt back on. Luke only pulled her to him and kissed her again.
âMaybe it´s not that bad.â She grinned and he nodded.
When he had buttoned his shirt and they had found her flip-flops they slung their arms around each other and made their way back up to the house.
âI can´t believe we did it again!â Luke suddenly laughed and stroked some sand off of Lorelai´s cheek.
âAfter the last time I didn´t think I could ever convince you to do it again. Even if we conceived Will that night.â She also laughed.
âYou´re still convinced about that? I thought we narrowed it down to some time during the honeymoon.â
âI like the thought that it happened that night. At least the embarrassment would have been worth it!â She laughed.
They unlocked the front door and were greeted by all of their offspring.
âMommy, Daddy!â The three kids yelled, ran towards them, and jumped up into their arms.
âWhat are you doing down here? You should be asleep by now!â Lorelai laughed when Sara kissed her cheek repeatedly.
âWhere have you been? These three kept asking for their daddy to kiss them goodnight and we got worried.â
âMy oh my, seems like we are not allowed to leave the house for more than a few minutes.â Lorelai smiled at Luke and gave Sara a big kiss.
âA few minutes? You were gone for more than two hours!â Rory shrieked, but Luke and Lorelai only smiled.
âOkay, bedtime for you three! And Rory I would like to talk to you when these three are in their beds.â Luke announced and he and Lorelai walked towards the stairs with their kids in their arms.
âGeez, where have you guys been? You´re leaving a trail of sand behind you. The whole beach is on the floor in here!â They heard Rory´s voice when they walked up the stairs and both started to laugh.
TBC