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So, here come the new part...
And don't say, it was slow! xD

Danke an Jule und Ramona fuer ihre boesen Feedbacks, but it's better than nothing xD

The next part's for Jule because she once told me about a specific book (you'll see) and because she's going to kill me... xD


Chapter twelve: Twinkle like little stars




[FONT=&quot]Even if you fall, I won't let you break. When all the noise is telling you to run away, run to me.[/FONT]


[FONT=&quot]As they didn’t hear anything, Rory reached out her hand and knocked again, this time a little more determined. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Yeah, come in,” a very silent and fragile voice answered. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Luke held his breath.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“It isn’t her…[/FONT][FONT=&quot]” he thought.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]This voice seemed so different to Lorelai’s voice. But Luke had to admit that he hadn’t heard this voice, this wonderful voice in a long time.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]He hadn’t noticed that Rory was looking at him, blankly faced. It seemed, like she, too, was not sure whether this voice was Lorelai’s. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Luke took a deep breath, nodded determined and then slowly opened the door. He entered another white, bald and cheerless room. There was only one single bed. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]As Luke stepped further into the room he barely recognized the person lying on the bed. The woman lay on her back and her hands were petting her stomach. This woman clearly was pregnant and the birth date couldn’t be far away anymore. But this wasn’t the fact, which made it hard for Luke to identify the person. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]It was her face. To describe it with pale would have been an understatement, it was chalk-white, her lips nothing more than a thin line and her brown hair was carelessly put in a ponytail.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]In fact, Luke wouldn’t have recognized the woman, if it weren’t for the eyes. Those blue eyes, which used to chain him, which used to make him amazed, which used to be able to twinkle like little stars, which used to tell him I love you. But now they seemed to be sad or even worse, they seemed to be lifeless, almost dead. But nevertheless, Luke imagined for a split of a second that he had seen that particular spark in them. The spark which always had been there, whenever she was happy, whenever she talked about Rory, whenever she talked about their relationship. [/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]It was her eyes that gave her away.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Lorelai’s eyes.[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]After all these months without seeing her, Luke wasn’t immediately able to grasp that he was actually standing in front of her. He had imagined this moment for such a long time, thinking about what he would say to her. But as he was standing there now, looking at her, he was too overwhelmed, too lost in this moment to say anything. So he remained staring at her, forgetting about anything around him but those blue eyes.[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Finally, he could break the connection between their eyes and was able to think straighter. Right at this moment, the voice, which seemed to be so far off of Lorelai’s said,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Luke…”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Luke stepped closer to her and softly said,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Lorelai. I… what… why…” he broke off, unable to create a real sentence.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]The thin line which was supposed to be her lips formed an almost invisible smile. It seemed like she was too tired or too weak to even do that.[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]A few moments passed in complete silence, then,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Mom.”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Luke turned around. He had totally forgotten that Rory had been entering the room behind him. She, too, looked like a mixture or surprise, confusion and sadness. But there was one thing that Luke hadn’t seen on her for a long time. It was happiness. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Mom, I’m so glad it’s you. I missed you so.”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“I missed you, too,” Lorelai responded and now she seemed to get some of her color back. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Again, silence. Luke still hadn’t moved from where he was standing. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Why are you here?” [/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]He heard Rory’s voice from far away, just like she was speaking from the other side of the hospital. His mind was racing with questions he wanted to be answered for eight months now. Eight incredible lonely months. But as he was looking at her right at his moment, his mind was somehow blank. An odd mixture of emotions swirled in his body. He was happy, incredibly happy that he finally had found her but at the same time something similar to anger spread across his body. Why did she take off? Why didn’t she want to have him around? Why didn’t she tell him about the baby? Why?[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]“Doctor Sutherland put me on bed-rest, so I’m in the hospital,” Lorelai answered quietly.[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Luke didn’t listen closely, his look swept around the room. Two photos caught his eyes. One of her and him dancing on Liz’ wedding, he had never seen this picture before. Maybe Liz gave it Lorelai some time ago without showing him. But what really shocked him was the other one. It was a four-year-old Rory, who was standing in front of her grandparent’s house. This picture used to stand on their chimneypiece and Luke hadn’t noticed it was gone for eight months. He always thought she didn’t take anything, but obviously he was wrong, so wrong. [/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]“Luke? Did I hear what I just said?” Rory’s voice brought him back to reality.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Sorry?” he replied slightly confused.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“I’m going to the cafeteria to get some coffee, so you can talk or…” she broke off, seeing Luke’s distant look. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Thanks, hon,” Lorelai replied instead of him and Rory went out of the room.[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Luke, once again, stared at her for a long time then finally, he said,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Lorelai… why… are… you… here?”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“The doctor said…”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“No, I mean, why did you disappear?” he cut her off.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Look, I didn’t disappear to a place called here, I’m just here… in Seattle,” she answered and added, as he saw the confused look on his face. “It’s a book.”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Luke subtly nodded but asked,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Why, Lorelai, why? I mean you’re pregnant, you could, you should, no, you had to tell me!”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“But…” Lorelai began, one single tear rolling down her face.[/FONT]

danke für die widmung :knuddel:
It's her!!! :freu: oh my...
ich weiß gerad nich, was ich sagen soll... sie is da... in seattle... heavily pregnant...
and a place called here... awww... das passt da voll... did you read that book?
und killen... killen werd ich dich nur wenn du uns jetzt erzählst, dass das baby nich Luke's is... I swear I'm gonna hunt you down! you'll have a looooong and painful death!

hdgdl Jule...

Ach, ich weiss nicht, ob du mich umbringst...
Ich bin gerade dabei, A place called here zu lesen, bisher gefaellt es mir ganz gut, besser als die letzten von ihr in any case^^Wie hat es dir gefallen,Jule?
Der neue Teil wird bald kommen, I think, bin wieder motiviert zu schreiben at the moment,
love, Ceddy

Huhu!

:freuu: Es geht weiter!!Aber schon wieder so ein doofer Cliffhanger!! Aber trotzdem, wieder herrlich zu lesen.

Zitat:In fact, Luke wouldn’t have recognized the woman, if it weren’t for the eyes. Those blue eyes, which used to chain him, which used to make him amazed, which used to be able to twinkle like little stars, which used to tell him I love you. But now they seemed to be sad or even worse, they seemed to be lifeless, almost dead.

Diese Stelle hat mir besonder gut gefallen. Ich hoffe es bleibt nicht nur beim 'used to tell him'....
Freu mich schon auf das nächste Chap.

Glg Ramona

Ich hoffe mal, dass ich dich nich killen muss... das würd ich ganz ungern tun!

Zitat:Ich bin gerade dabei, A place called here zu lesen, bisher gefaellt es mir ganz gut, besser als die letzten von ihr in any case^^Wie hat es dir gefallen,Jule?

Hmmm... Also ich fands nich schlecht... ich fands ein wenig komisch... but I really like the idea of this place called here. It definitely is a great idea for a book. Mir hat aber Where rainbows end am besten gefallen... Es hat mich an manchen stellen sehr an LL erinnert ^^

Where rainbows end war gut, aber mir gefiel PS I love you besser... actually, hat mich das buch erst auf die Idee mit Letters to you hingewiesen xD
The third one, I hated though^^ Too unbelievable xD

Hey,
ich wollte nur sagen, dass bis Freitag wohl kein neues Chap kommt, weil ich wohl keine internet haben werde. Aber dann kommt bestimmt einer. Promise!

Alrighty,
here's the new part...
Danke an Ramona and Jule. I hope you keep on reading


Chapter Thirteen: Seattle Rain


[FONT=&quot]I try to see the good in life, but good things in life are hard to find. I’m wasting too much time being strong, holding on. Can’t let it bring us down.[/FONT]


[FONT=&quot]“It isn’t mine?” Luke silently said, slowly sitting down on a chair beside Lorelai’s bed. [/FONT] [FONT=&quot]
His heart began to beat faster but strangely out of shape. Actually, he felt like he himself stood beside his own body. But then he focused back to Lorelai, to be more exact, to Lorelai’s eyes. And as he looked into those heavenly blue eyes, he knew what she would answer him. And sure enough, a few moments later, she said,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Of course, it’s yours, Luke. I would never cheat on you, you know that.”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Luke looked at her. What was she talking about? She would never cheat on him?[/FONT] [FONT=&quot]

“But you did,” he said, almost soundless. [/FONT] [FONT=&quot]“No…” she responded, her eyes once again filling with tears. “I didn’t.”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Slowly, Luke shook his head. He had to search for the right words but then he realized there were none.[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]“You did,” he said so calm that Lorelai lifted her head a little bit.
“You did cheat on me. You cheated on me, as you left that day eight months ago, as you left without leaving a clue behind. You may think that you took nothing with you, except maybe this picture of Rory. But that’s not true. You took everything with you. Every inch of my body was aching since you left. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t think straight. Actually, I wasn’t living without you being there. Every night, I dreamt about your reasons to leave. I imagined that you’ve been kidnapped the first few days until I found your first letter. At least I knew then, that there was no crime. But it didn’t make things easier. In turn, it made it harder. Much harder. It made me rethink all my actions along our way together, you know. What I did wrong, but honestly, I couldn’t think of one single reason. Of course, we had our troubles, but deep inside my heart I always knew that you were the one for me. And even though you always claimed in your letters that you loved me, I wasn’t sure, whether you really did. Why would a person leave like that, if the ones she loves were right in front of her? I couldn’t walk into the DragonFly for over half a year. I just couldn’t stand to see the threshold. Do you remember the threshold, Lorelai? Because if you did, you would understand, why I hadn’t been able to go there. But one day, I managed to enter the inn and what I found made my world spin madly round. I found this picture of our baby. Our baby, Lorelai. Yours and mine. And as I sat there in your office, I was so angry. You and I wanted kids. You remember? And still, there I was sitting, staring at this photograph and couldn’t think of a reason why you had left. I still can’t think of a reason. Deep inside of me, I knew it couldn’t be another men’s child because like you said, you would never cheat on me, at least not in that way. But you cheated on me in any other possible way. You cheated on me, as you left without saying me, why you threw up the day before. You cheated on me because you didn’t tell me you were pregnant. You just didn’t tell me anything. You cheated on me as you wrote that letter to Jess. You wrote him, how sorry you were, how you sometimes just wanted to go back. But why didn’t you write all of this to me? I was the one, or rather one of the two persons, you could trust. I was the one longing for you, thinking about you. Not Jess. I don’t say he doesn’t care about you. I mean that dedication was amazing. But it wasn’t his life you turned upside down, as you first walked into the diner 12 years ago. It wasn’t him, who stood by your side through some hard moments. It wasn’t him, you married. It just wasn’t him. I know that this letter was the missing piece to my puzzle. Without that letter, I would have never been able to find you. But that’s exactly the point… why did you write him? Not me? Aren’t I the one you love, Lorelai?”[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Luke stood up and began to wander around the bald room. He wasn’t able to look at her. He breathed hard, facing the window. The world around mirrored his emotions. The cloud was almost pitch-black. It was raining. Cheerless.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]How long he stood there, looking at the houses of Seattle, he couldn’t tell, but then he felt a hand on his shoulder. He didn’t have to turn around. He knew that it was her hand.

[/FONT] [FONT=&quot]Another moment passed in total silence then that silent, shaky voice of hers said,[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Of course, I love you, Luke. All the time I wanted to be found. And not just by anyone. I wanted to be found by you. And look, you did. I thought of every person you would find about that Casablanca thing. Who else would have been able to recognize the name? And every time when I was thinking about you, my heart broke into pieces. I was thinking about what you were doing right at that moment, whether you were thinking about me, whether you still would be in love me. But I also knew you would never forgive me for what I’ve done. It was awful leaving like that, I know that. But I had no other choice, Luke.”

[/FONT] [FONT=&quot]She broke off. Tears were streaming down her face now and her body now was just as shaky as her voice had been. [/FONT] [FONT=&quot]“Luke, you have to understand. I had no other choice. My departure was supposed to make things easier.”[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Luke finally turned around to face her. She could see his eyes shimmer. But as he continued speaking, his voice was surprisingly steady.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“You always have a choice. You always do. What in the world could have been so wrong that you didn’t tell me you were pregnant, what in the world could have been so wrong that you left us behind with nothing but pain?”[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“I know everybody always has a choice. But as I left that day, I didn’t see any. Not a tiny little choice. I was desperate, Luke. I still am. You know, I didn’t leave because of the baby. I –“[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Lorelai was interrupted by an opening door. But it was not Rory who entered the room, arriving from the cafeteria, but a nurse. [/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“What are you still doing here? Visiting hour is long over,” she asked harshly.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Can’t he stay a little longer please? We have so much to talk about,” Lorelai begged.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“No, you need rest you know that, Ms. Lundt.”[/FONT] [FONT=&quot]
“Is there no chance…” Luke put forward but the nurse pointed her finger to the door.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]“Out.”[/FONT]

[FONT=&quot]Luke turned around to look at her for the last time. She still didn’t look like herself. But as she noticed Luke looking at her, something similar to a smile appeared on her face. She finally could see him again. She knew he was angry but he hadn’t heard the whole story, yet. She wasn’t sure, whether he would ever forgive her.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]But at least he had found her.[/FONT]

yay neues kapi (eigentlich muss ich ja meine Facharbeit fertig schreiben, aber für dich mach ich immer ne ausnahme )

erstmal bin ich so erleichtert, dass es nich irgendjemand anderes baby is... das erspart mir das geld für die amerika flugtickets
Lukes rede hat mich halb zum heulen gebracht... aw man
ich will endlich wissen, was mit Lorelai los is... hat sie irgendeine krankeit? Krebs? Leukemie? sonstwas? aw man *pout*
du muss aber auch immer an den dümmsten Stellen enden *schmoll*

schnell, schnell updaten, pleeeease *makes puppy eyes*

hdgdl Jule

Jippy, neues Kapitel. Bin soeben von Italien zurückgekommen und was finde ich hier?? Ein neues Kapitel. *freu*

Doofe, doofe Krankenschwester...Warum kann sie nicht einmal ein Auge zudrücken?? Ich habe so gehofft, dass ich endlich erfahre WIESO Lorelai weggegangen ist!! Aber nein, DU musst ja wieder an so einer spannenden Stelle aufhören.

Bitte schreib schnell weiter!!

glg ramona