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Chapter 8: You told him
Lorelai spent the night at Rory’s as she was in no state to drive home. The next morning she felt a lot better, although she knew she had to go home and face her problems. She hoped that Chris would be gone by the time she got there, but knew how stubborn he could be. After a long, hot shower Lorelai went into the kitchen to say goodbye to Rory.
“You ready to go home?” Rory asked her cautiously.
“Well, as ready as I’ll ever be I guess.” Lorelai replied and gave her a forced smile.
“Things will be okay mom. You’ll see.” Rory tried to reassure her.
“I hope so Rory. I really hope so.” Lorelai gave her daughter a slight smile and walked towards her to give her a small hug.
“I love you kid.” Lorelai mumbled
Rory smiled. “I love you too mom.”
Lorelai nodded. “I’ll call you later okay?”
“I have my cell phone ready and waiting.”
“Good.”
~*~
After one last hug Lorelai got into her car. She turned the music on loud in the hope she couldn’t hear herself think. It worked and she was home before she knew it. When she was about to turn into her drive way, she saw Chris’ car parked there. She cursed inwardly as she parked her car. She stormed inside the house, ready to fight. The anger and disappointment when Luke had rejected her bubbled to the surface and although she knew it wasn’t Christopher’s fault she needed to take her anger out on someone, now that the pain and sadness over Luke’s rejection hit full force.
Chris was holding a box in his arms when Lorelai entered the house.
“Hey”, he greeted her friendly.
“What are you doing here?” The tone in her voice showed him how mad she was.
“Can we talk?” he tried nonetheless.
“I don’t want to talk”, she hissed.
“I know, but I do”, Chris decided, put the box down and grabbed her by the arm.
She sighed and let him lead her into the living room, although she had tried at first to get out of his grasp.
In the living- room he pushed her down on the couch and she looked up to him, saw his struggle for words.
“Lorelai, do you know what it means when I move out today?” he asked her then.
“Yes”, she spit out.
“Lorelai, if I really move out today it means that we are over. No more marriage, no more family, nothing”, Chris told her in a very calm tone. Lorelai looked at him and suddenly her anger was gone. Somehow she felt sorry for him, because she realized that now his dream was fading away just like hers did a year ago with Luke.
“Chris, I am sorry. I am really sorry that I pulled you into this whole mess. I should never have come to you that night when my whole world tumbled down. Chris I would have needed a friend that night, not a lover. I would have needed a friend all those months, but never a husband. I… I just… Chris, I love Luke. I’ve always loved him, this whole time. I wanted a family and more kids and everything, but I needed to get married to you to understand that I only want all that with Luke. Without him… there’s no marriage I am able to commit to”, Lorelai confessed. Chris looked her in the eyes and saw that she wasn’t telling him all this to make him leave, but because it was true.
“Okay, then I guess I should really go now. I will keep in contact with Rory though and you can always call me... as a friend… if you want to”, he offered.
“Thanks Chris, but I think we shouldn’t fall back into that pattern”, Lorelai told him.
“So, that means you’re back with Luke?” Chris asked as he started to get upset but tried to stay calm. Lorelai looked down and felt her eyes starting to get misty.
“No, no, I am not,” she said and focused on her hands, because she didn’t want to cry about Luke in front of Chris.
“Why?” Chris asked, because he honestly didn’t understand.
“Luke doesn’t want me anymore”, she confessed.
“Then he’s even more stupid than I thought”, Chris said, took another long look at Lorelai, who sat at the couch and bit her lip then he walked out without saying another word.
~*~
After her conversation with Chris Lorelai changed and went to the inn. She stayed there until late because she had to catch up with the work she’d been missing the past 2 days. On her way home she drove past the diner and saw how Luke was closing up. Against better judgement she parked her car and went inside to talk to him.
“We’re closed.” He didn’t look up when he heard the door bell ring.
“I know. But that never stopped me before.”
He looked up now. “Hey.”
“Hey.”
“Coffee?”
“Do you even have to ask?”
“I guess not.” He walked around the counter and started filling the coffee maker.
“So, long day?” He tried small talk because he had no idea what to say to her after their conversation yesterday.
“Kind of. I had some work to catch up on. I just came from the Inn.”
“Did you have dinner already? I can make you a burger if you want to?”
She shook her head. “No thanks. I’m not hungry.”
“What? Lorelai Gilmore is not hungry?”
She shook her head. “Listen, I was kind of hoping you would want to rethink what we were talking about yesterday.”
He sighed. “Lorelai.”
“No Luke, don’t Lorelai me. Hear me out okay ? I ended things with Chris for good now. He moved out and we are getting a divorce. We were never supposed to get married in the first place. You and I were. And I know that you’re doubting that right now, but I know that you and I are meant to be Luke. I know it. Please, just think about it.”
“Lorelai please, stop!” Luke yelled at her and slammed the towel he held onto the counter.
“But Luke, please, we would have a chance now, Chris is gone, please Luke”, she begged and pleaded, something she never thought she would ever do.
“Lorelai, this is killing me, okay? All I wanted for the last ten years was being happy with you, marry you, have a family. We tried it and we failed. It didn’t work out and Chris was only part of it. I have to wake up every day in the bed you slept in, open the diner you came to every day, brew the coffee which is your life elixir, walk through the town where everything is reminding me of you. I had to go through that while you had a nice time with Chris and then got married. So obviously you never had those problems. Now that you would have to face all that, only with Chris, you come back here and want me to be the substitute again. I can’t do that Lorelai. I can’t”, he said.
“But I love you Luke” she yelled back.
“And you never told him you love him?” he asked.
“Luke”, she said, shocked, but trying to stall.
“Did you? Did you tell him you love him?” Luke asked again
“Yes”, she admitted, barely above a whisper.
“Then how do you think I could believe you?” he asked back.
“I thought you know me”, she shot back.
“I thought that as well and see where we are now”, Luke told her and she remained silent.
“You can come here as often as you want. Maybe one day we can be friends again”, he said after he had taken a deep breath and had started to clean the counter with the towel again.
“You were my dream. Our family was my dream. No friendship will ever make it come true”, she said and started to sob before she walked out of the diner as fast as she could.
~*~
April was waiting for her father upstairs and heard most of the conversation he had with Lorelai. She felt so bad for everything that happened. It was all her fault that Luke and Lorelai broke up. If she hadn’t been so selfish and wanted to meet her father, none of this would have happened. If she hadn’t done that stupid science project, Luke wouldn’t have known about her. And if Luke hadn’t known, he wouldn’t have kept things a secret and there wouldn’t have been any problems between her father and Lorelai. She knew felt it was her responsibility and knew she had to try to make things right between the two of them. Over the past year she got to know her father and she knew that he wasn’t happy right now. She saw how his mood went up when he and Lorelai started talking again. And when she came home from school today, she knew something was up. He was cranky and he threw out customers. And he burned about every burger he tried making.
She pretended to be reading when Luke came upstairs.
“Hey. What are you reading?”
“Just some book for my English class.”
“Oh okay…”
“Hey dad?”
“Yeah?”
“Can I ask you a question?” she asked and tried to sound not as timid as she felt.
“Sure.”
“Why did you and Lorelai break up?”
“We’ve talked about this. She and I were just not meant to be. That’s all.”
“But you still love her.”
He shook his head. “No.”
“Yes you do. You still care about her. I know it.”
“April, I don’t want to talk about it. It’s late. You should go to sleep.” Luke told her.
“But dad,” April started to protest.
“No. This is none of your business. It’s over between her and me okay. That’s all you need to know.”
“But...”
He raised his hand, a gesture that told her the conversation was over. Inside she knew that it wasn’t, but she also knew that she’d better not protest. So she gave in and put her book aside.
“Goodnight dad.”
He sighed “Goodnight April.”
April turned of the light and turned on her side, facing the wall. While she tried to fall asleep she started to think about how she could make Luke see that he and Lorelai were meant to be.
TBC
Men are so hard to understand. Is it just because she hurt him? I mean, she didn't do the right thing, I guess, but please ... *pleading* He's so hurt and probably afraid that she'll hurt him again and that'sway he's just resenting everything she said, everything they used to be. It was HIS dream as well :heul: There she goes, rushing in and telling him that she's in love with him and wants to be with him and have his children ... and he just blows her off 
(which is kinda good because now she has to fight for him^^) Geez!
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aber wer tut das nicht?!
